People change. All the time, we change. I shouldn't hold that against anyone... But it's harder to do than say. I guess it's just scary because I dont have eyes looking that way anymore... And the longer it goes with me on the outside the harder it is to not fear the worst...
It rained today... but my top clung to my chest in the sweat of the humidity. deep thunder, dark blue, downward. Folding clothes and thinking. Folding clothes and pondering on all the daily drear... Where is the romance gone kids?
No one tries to 'sweep eachother off their feet' anymore. They is no scandal, no passion... No lust... All just appreciation and convinience. Why is it that all those that are willing to actually try to coerse you to try to get to know them, are all sleezy and ugly?
Why can't there be excitement and spontainuity with men these days? Where is the poetry, the passion that men like shakespeare felt for his women. Courting was so different then...
My bounty is as deep as the sea,
My love as deep; the more I give to thee,
The more I have, for both are infinite.
No more fire... No more passion. Just pleasure. and trying to fit it into the daily schedule? why dont they have rooms in the office for lunch time quickees? Would probably boost morale but would decrease productivety. We have become desensitised to sex because everyday it's in our faces and I for one, think that sucks.
Where is the rawness of sex, of loving... There must be fire for the wood to truly burn... I want to start exploring in the thrills and spills and pills, high, single, classical life. You should join me.
Some of us still believe in romance, and passion - And so far it has been nothing but my bitter, wonderful, downfall. Achille's heart.
ReplyDeleteFirstly if your going to say things like "and it's making me consider becoming a whore" why would it discust you that im giving you a website that is excatly that... would you rather just go stand on the side of the street with a sign...
ReplyDeleteSecondly i Clearly remember the time you and imogen dragged me around cloths shopping and did you two pay for any of them... NO, so yes i do think your a thief i just didnt know you would do it to someone who was once your friend but i guess stupid me and if you think you can wright things with out me reacting think again you need to be carefull with what you say because it will come back and bite you in the ass and yes i know this goes for me.
The only reason i say these things over the internet is because you wouldnt give me the time of day to say them to your face and you know what i dont know you you always told me what you use to be like and how much you have changed... you havent changed at all, all you thinnk about is yourself and your all take and never any give.
I Know how much you enjoy doing the things you do and i also enjoy somne of those things and i dont want to have to see you out and have a cold hateful tention in the air but so far thats all i feel you tell me to grow up but you use the smae childish games to get under my skin, im trying to move on and i am, no i have, i relised more about myself in the past three weeks then in my life, i had to ask myself what did i really lose when i lost you and the answer was i lost nothing compared to what i was losing when i was with you.
I dont want to continue this pointless shit where doing because in another 6 months what does it mean that you where just another chapter in my life, or a bad memory. I dont want to just give it all in but when you hold all these things against me it makes it hard and yes i know i cant take back what i said and did but you cant either and i would personally rather have more friends then enemies, what happened happened but if you where ever truly my friend you should be able to move on from that, yes i acted like an asshole but so did you.
So when your ready, if you are ever ready, you know where to find me... and i really do hope what your doing now works out for you because you clearly have commitment problems and you clearly have a passion for what your doing but is that enough for you? is anything ever enough for you. And ask yourself if you died right now would you still be a happy person... like you said you where at earthdance.